there was much shouting and accusatory language from the mouth of e. last night, both of which caused me to completely lose it with him. when someone pushes me up against a wall, my inherently nasty tongue goes to work. (that sounds like a porno movie...hmmm)
i said some things to him that i probably would have anyway, but in not- so-nice language and tone. i think maybe he just needs to get mad at me so that we can get this part of the deal over with and move back into what is really a very good friendship. at least i am hoping so. we'll see what tonight brings.
i had forgotten how uncomfortable it is to share a bed with someone you are not getting along with. i finally got up and went and laid on the living room floor in the dark, watched the night sky and listened to music through headphones. it calmed me down.
i am not an angry person by nature and it always freaks me out slightly when i really get pissed at someone.