several years ago, a very close and well-loved friend of mine killed himself. (i've written about him previous to this) no "warning signs", no clue to any of those of us who knew him well. to this day, he remains in the conversation and thoughts of everyone who knew him.
e. knows about this. he knows what it did to me. and tonight, in a pathetic and stupid phone call, he "jokingly" said he was feeling suicidal.
i am filled with a rage and sadness i don't ever want to feel again. i do'nt think he'll do it, but i sent a friend of ours over to check on him.
eric, if you wanted to hit me in the sorest spot i have, congratulations. if you wanted to be certain that we could never, ever be friends again, you just did it. good for you.